Done

Finished it last night.

As I’ve tried to record for other mass shootings, I believe the victims should be seen as more than simply names connected to another atrocity. According to WMTW and The Associated Press, the identified victims in the Lewiston, Maine, mass shooting include:

Ronald G. Morin, 55, described as an upbeat, happy person who was always full of jokes and loved his family, was among the eight men killed at Schemengees Bar & Grille. He was employed by Coca Cola and prided himself on never missing a day of work. His obituary notes that his wife, children, and dog Remy were his entire world.

Peyton Brewer Ross, 40, worked as a pipefitter and loved cornhole, wrestling, comic book heroes, and helping others. From his brother: “He was a character. He just made people laugh. It was the way he was able to tell stories. You could hear the story, it could be 100 times, but each time he told it there was something else that you could pull out of it.”

Joshua A. Seal, 36, was among several members of the deaf and hard of hearing community in Lewiston who regularly went to Schemengees Bar & Grille to play cornhole. On Wednesday, he was participating in a cornhole tournament for the deaf, along with Steve Vozzella, Bryan MacFarlane, and Billy Brackett, who were also killed. He leaves behind a wife and four children. He was the Director of Interpreting Services at Pine Tree Society in Scarborough and a Certified Deaf Interpreter. He interpreted for several press conferences, including the Covid pandemic briefings. He loved to travel and enjoyed outdoor sports.

Bryan M. MacFarlane, 41, was playing in the cornhole tournament for the deaf when he was killed. A commercial truck driver who grew up in Maine, he moved back to the state to be closer to his mother. His sister described him as an outdoorsy man who loved camping, fishing, and riding his motorcycle. He also loved spending time with deaf friends and with his dog, M&M, who was named after his favorite candy and regularly joined him on the road.

Joseph Lawrence Walker, 57, a manager at Schemengees Bar and Grille, died at the scene of the shooting. According to police, Walker’s last moments were heroic as he tried to stop the gunman with a butcher knife to protect others. He was shot to death in the attempt.

Arthur Fred Strout, 42, was playing pool at Schemengees Bar and Grill with his father. They’d planned to leave together, but Arthur stayed behind when his father left. A friend said he was a generous person with an infectious, silly laugh. Described by his wife as a Christmas person who would start decorating at Halloween, he leaves behind a blended family of five children.

Maxx A. Hathaway, 35, spent Wednesday night playing pool at Schemengees Bar & Grille with his pregnant wife Brenda. By the time the shooter burst into the restaurant, Hathaway was there alone. His sister described him as “a goofy, down to earth person” who “loved to joke around and always had an uplifting attitude no matter what was going on.” When they were young, he was always willing to play dolls with their younger sister. His third child is due in about a month.

Stephen M. Vozzella, 45, was playing in Schemengees Bar & Grille’s cornhole tournament for the deaf when he was killed. An active member of the New England Deaf Cornhole community, he’d won several victories in the sport. He was the father of two and a letter carrier for the USPS.

Thomas Ryan Conrad, 34, was the manager of the bowling alley and tried with several other men to take down the shooter when he entered the building. An Army veteran, his service included tours in Iraq and Afghanistan. He returned to Maine to be closer to his daughter, and friends say he died a hero, rushing the shooter to protect the children in the bowling alley.

Michael R. Desiauriers II, 51, was also killed at the bowling alley while trying to stop the gunman. His ex-wife, who’d known him since elementary school, described him as “an amazing man. An amazing father. An amazing provider.” Michael’s girlfriend, who was with him at the bowling alley, told her that Michael had tried to fight back and urged his girlfriend to hide behind the ball rack before he lunged at the attacker.

Jason Adam Walker, 51, another man killed at the bowling alley while helping Desiauriers take down the gunman after they ensured their families were under cover and safe. He enjoyed vegetable gardening, creating educational YouTube videos, preserving seed and harvest, making homemade sausage with his best friend Michael Deslauriers and baking sourdough bread. He leaves behind a wife and two sons.

Tricia C. Asselin, 53, an accomplished athlete, a mother, and a volunteer, was bowling with her sister at Just-In-Time Recreation, where she worked. A friend described her as “the type of person who would have done anything for children and anybody. If she liked you, she made you feel like you were in her inner circle.”

William A. Young, 44, described as a man who was dedicated to his family and always trying to be “a funny guy,” was with his son at the bowling alley for Youth League Night when he was killed.

Aaron Young, 14, son of Bill Young, was an avid bowler killed with his father on Youth League Night.

Robert E. Violette, 76, a dedicated volunteer coach for a youth bowling league, was killed at Just-in-Time while trying to save the lives of those around him. He was described as always having a smile and always willing to coach both kids and adults with bowling tips.

Lucille M. Violette, 73, wife of Bob Violette, was killed at the bowling alley with her husband. She was an employee of Lewiston Public Schools, dedicated to her position as a secretary in the business office for 52 years. A favorite story she told was of proposing to Bob after they met because she didn’t want to take a chance of losing him. She became a mother of three sons and a grandmother of six.

William Frank Brackett, 48, was killed at Schemengees Bar and Grille while playing in the cornhole tournament alongside Joshua Seal, Steve Vozzella, and Bryan MacFarlane. Described as a shy, kind guy and a natural-born athlete with a passion for all sports, he leaves behind a wife and young daughter.

Keith D. Macneir, 64, killed at Schemengees, was a Floridian who traveled to Maine to spend his 64th birthday with his son. A friend described him as “the friendliest and kindest guy in any room, whose loss will leave a huge hole in the lives of many, many people.”

something new


Picked up this coloring book the other day because who wouldn’t want to color more kindness into the world? The first page I removed to color also led me to explore something new.

Below is the page, completed with gel pens and colored pencils.

And here’s the information it led me to (as shown left to right, top to bottom of the coloring page), because I wanted to know where all those different words for “peace” originated. You can teach an old dog new things!

“Peace” in languages not English:

שלום – Israel and liturgical, and Yiddish in Israel, USA, Russia, etc.
शान्तिः – India, Nepal
평화 – Korea
Sìth – Scotland
Pace – Corsica, Moldava, Romania, Italy, Switzerland, Scotland, Europe, North Africa, Middle East (extinct)
Frieden – Germany, Austria, Switzerland, Liechtenstein, Italy, Belgium
Heddwch – Wales
Paz – Spain, North and South America, Portugal, Asturias, Caribbean, Brazil, Angola, Mozambique, Cape Verde, Guinea-Bissau
Paix – France, Belgium, Canada, Caribbean, West Africa, Polynesia
Fred is a word for peace in many countries (Norway, Sweden, Finland, Denmark, Greenland) and Frede (Germany, Netherlands), and Fréda (France, Switzerland) but I’m not sure about the font as it’s shown on this page
Síocháin – Ireland
Maluhia – Hawaii
Vrede – South Africa, Netherlands, Belgium
Pokój – Poland, Germany
سلام – North Africa, Mideast, Central Asia, liturgical, and possibly Algeria
和平 – China, Viet Nam, Japan

Thursday thoughts


A little errand running today, which earned me this self-indulgence. Decadent, maybe, but at least that’s a reusable straw and the cup is recyclable.

I was thinking about my Wednesday post and remembered I’d saved this on my phone. Still makes me laugh every time.

I’m writing again. Makes me feel like SUPERMAN!

(Except not in a display box. Though Rhonda has said, when she’s in the hallway and passing the sanctuary with its gate to keep out dogs, how she feels like she’s at one of those historical landmarks where stanchions block visitors from some rooms. 🤣)

Create everyday

I use that phrase a lot–“create everyday”–and I generally follow it. For a few random reasons, September is proving to be a high-anxiety month for me. There’s really no method like snapping one’s fingers or finding magical thinking to make it vanish. The best I can do is try to manage it. Some of the ways I once would have done that would only give me more anxiety these days.

But anything creative can occupy my thoughts and settle my feelings a little. I follow an artist on Instagram who provides quick and easy craft projects, mostly using watercolors, and I finally tried one of them. She drew a rhino last month, and for a dollar donation to her that would go to a rhino organization, I could download him. Her rhino had more of a space theme, but I did one I call “Boho Rhino.” I don’t have watercolors, so I improvised with watercolor pens and water.

Today, I wrote in the journal I use to discuss things related to the Neverending Saga, and then I colored the page opposite my thoughts. The reassurance is timely.

Here’s a photo of the journal page and the rhino. Whatever your circumstances, I hope you can find a creative way to get a little of the mental, emotional, or physical balance you need.

High Anxiety

Does anyone remember the film High Anxiety, Mel Brooks’s satirical homage to the films of Alfred Hitchcock? I think I’ve seen it only once and barely remember it, except for Cloris Leachman’s role as Nurse Diesel.

I’m currently undergoing my own version of high anxiety, and there’s no fruit cup in the house. It’s not the frame of mind I write best in, so sewing it is!

I haven’t started the machine portion of mending this quilt. Today it was all by hand. Gives me something to focus on.

Saturday stuff


Today I spent time outside with the dogs and got rid of a couple of dead plants. We got them through winter, but the drought finally took them. 🙁


While I was watching the next-to-last season of “Suits,” I started working on patching the dog quilt that’s so tattered. (Happy International Dog Day!) There’s a white rectangle, stained with rust stains probably from what it was stored with when we flooded, I don’t know, as well as having worn and torn spots. I’m going to cover that entire white rectangle with plaids and prints. I estimate it will take around 36 new squares to cover it. I got the four corners done today (three squares each), so that leaves 24 more to sew on.


Here’s a green plaid square that I sewed on today. Jim said he remembers when this fabric used to be a pair of my PJ pants. I keep fabric like this to use for doll clothes, but it’s coming in handy for this quilt restoration.

After the white rectangle is covered, I’ll begin repairing the squares on the rest of the quilt that are no longer stitched down, or are frayed and may need replacing.

The final season, of “Suits” is not on Netflix. Fortunately, it’s on another streaming service that Tom subscribes to, so I should be able to finish it. No big deal.

When I ran out of episodes and took breaks from quilt repair, I continued to re-read the sixth book in the Neverending Saga. And I realized I missed a huge opportunity to write a good chapter. So… guess I’ll be editing it more than I expected. Which is cool. Mercury retrograde is a great time to finish it and not a great time to start writing the seventh.

Button Sunday

Balance.

Once again, I had to clear some saved stuff off my phone. You can see it all behind the cut if you’re so inclined. Just things that caught my eye or made me pause and think for a moment. A lot of times, these things I save make me think more about my characters or other people than about myself. I’m always looking for more wisdom, regardless, so I always hope something resonates with people who read here. =)

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