Hey, hey, you, you…

Managed to get another book read this month despite the vision challenges, Taylor Jenkins Reid’s Daisy Jones & the Six. When I saw Amy at the beginning of March, she recommended the book to me because she’d enjoyed it (she may have also been watching the Amazon series; I can’t remember). She said things about the story reminded her of characters or situations in my old Rock and Roll Soap Operas, as I called them. This actually made me less inclined to read the book, since those old R&RSOs are the foundation for the series I’ve been working on since 2019.

Why? It’s not so much that I fear being influenced by another writer’s work. It’s because I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve created completely out of my brain, in my attempt to flesh out my characters, what is for me new and original writing. Then I’ll read some artist’s biography or memoir and find something from their real lives that’s eerily similar. Timothy, among others, cautions me not to let it bother me, as there’s “nothing new under the sun.” But the possibility that anyone would think I plundered artists’ or celebrities’ lives for my fiction has a real “ick” factor for me. I started writing these stories when I was thirteen, and I’m significantly older than that now. The characters have grown and changed, as have I. It would be impossible for even me to find anyone I’ve known or known about who’d be their prototypes.

In deciding whether I wanted to read the novel, I read about it first, and readers kept mentioning that it was loosely based on Fleetwood Mac. Then I found out Lynne had read it, mentioned that, and she said she didn’t see parallels to Fleetwood Mac (other than the obvious; they’re in the music business). She had a copy (I couldn’t find it as an e-book, and right now, it’s easier on my eyes to read print books anyway) and loaned it to me. And like her, while reading it, I didn’t get a Fleetwood Mac vibe, though the author has been very clear that she loves and is inspired by Fleetwood Mac.

I must remember that people see/read/assume/judge whatever fits their narrative. I learned, when I (either alone or with my writing partners) had books published, that people read through the lenses of their own experiences, fears, hopes, losses, joys. It’s satisfying when someone tells me what they enjoyed about something I wrote, but I’d rather not know their analysis of how it’s their story, or their relative’s story, or even what they believe is my own personal story. My characters are too real to me, as they are, to be reflections of me or anyone else. Lynne and I first created them as inspired by our musician crushes. Decades later, not a single one of those real-life inspirations has lived a life anything like the lives I’ve written.

So when I finally sat down and read Daisy Jones & the Six, I enjoyed it for the stories and characters it offered. It was wonderful to be lost enough in the story to laugh, cry, and worry. I could sometimes see where Reid’s research coincided with my own, but I totally accepted her novel as a work of fiction born of her imagination, and I liked both her narrative choices and her characters (including the unlikable ones).

FAR more disturbing than anything else is that the book’s genre is listed as historical fiction. Yikes! I think of historical fiction as being from the 1800s or earlier. Does this mean that by my writing a series stretching from the 1950s to sometime in the 1980s, I have become a relic? Am I just a few pages away from telling people to get off my lawn? Or…

Mood: Monday

Photo previously posted was of the mixed media work Fly, by Lynn Whipple in 2011.

I’m unsure why birds keep finding their way into what I’m writing, but one benefit is that they draw me to new artists. I’ve really enjoyed exploring Lynn Whipple’s website and Instagram account.

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Happy birthday to our friend Steve C and remembering that time he had an entire jet to himself. Travel large, my friend! (Photo credit: a flight attendant with a sense of humor… Ah, those were the days.)

A random but specific hope

I previously posted a photo of Jackson Pollock’s painting Number 31, painted in 1949.

“My mind is a jumble,” Riley wrote in a poem (I mentioned this here once before, sometime in 2020). I tell the people who live with me or interact with me now, and who’ll hopefully be around if I, like my parents before me, grapple with some form or degree of dementia in my last years, that they must, absolutely must, tell the people in whose care I’m placed that the population I talk about, the people whose skins and brains and lives I seem to shift in and out of, are not a sign of madness, multiple personality disorder, or some brand of schizophrenia (a disease I barely understand and probably shouldn’t even reference).

No, I am afflicted by characters. I contain multitudes of lives and minds and hearts who never leave me. Each of them can, all at once or at different times, be my own heart, my soul, my memory, my past, present, future. In all the folds of my brain, they coexist among a lifetime of friends, colleagues, family members, heartbreakers, healers, poets, liars: shining examples of all that is flawed and sublime about humans. When my last chapter unfolds, I may not be able to say who is real and who is imagined.

In the end, everyone is a bit of both, probably.

Some Sinatra for your Saturday redux


Frank… I’ve never taken Frank Sinatra out of the box since I found him at an estate sale before the Pandemic Years™.

Since I haven’t been writing, I wasn’t pulling music from my K to R binder, though I know exactly where I left off. Because of the migraine vision, I haven’t done much at all since March 1. I appreciate your kind words, but I’m fine. Or I will be fine. I’m mostly frustrated. I have to figure out some way to work around the vision thing, like maybe very limited periods on the computer which will be used for writing only. No research. No scrolling social media. If I get two hours a day, I need them for writing. I couldn’t get scheduled for surgery until June 12. Three months make a season. My season of… adapting? Accepting? Accommodating? I don’t know.

Back to Frank. I didn’t go without music. When I made myself rest, eyes closed, remembering to breathe correctly, I listened to Frank Sinatra: The Best of the Columbia Years (a four-CD set), and Frank Sinatra: The Capitol Years (a three-CD set). At some point around the time of the Harvey flood, I lost the third CD in the Capitol set. I finally repurchased the entire collection and gave the two extra first and second CDs to Debby.

Thus ends my blogging time for the day. There isn’t a version of this song by anyone I don’t love, even though it always gives me a knot in my throat. It was written/published in 1938, so just before WW2, but it will forever make me think of lovers in the war years.

Shame on the moon?

Extra points if you know the song my title quotes.

Is it the full moon this week that’s made things…complicated? My eye issues that keep me offline and off the phone and unable to really even write by hand if I could write that way, or do research for when I can write again? A week when I have to go places (three doctors this week, plus one meeting with a friend who’s generously chosen to help me with post-pandemic “re-entry”), meaning that when I drive, I have to stop if my vision messes up and wait it out.

One of those doctor visits is tomorrow, when we’ll be discussing eye surgery. Here’s your hold music while we wait for an update. =)

Mood: Monday

A photo previously posted here was of a 2021 painting by Chris Rivers, Neptune.

What I listened to while I wrote Sunday. The great Annie Lennox with Diva; Medusa; and Bare. I hope to get a lot more writing done today if things go well.

Today is the new moon, a good time to set intentions. It sounds significant this month, so I’m including this link to Kevin at Body, Mind, and Soul if you’re interested in hearing more.

Button Sunday


It’s hard to find a good button for Led Zeppelin IV, which was the first full album I ever heard by the band.

What got me thinking about it was this video.

If you watch it, the expression on the dog’s face is probably akin to mine the night my first boyfriend/true love, he of the great fringed jacket and Easy Rider helmet,* lowered the needle onto the record so I could hear “Stairway to Heaven” in his room one night.

If you know, you know.

*Scroll down this post for My Own Great Motorcycle Adventure.

Some Saturday stuff

Friday evening I was catching up my day planner when I did this prompt: “Draw and label an ‘ideal version’ of yourself.” I shot this photo with my iPad, with the phone covering my self-portrait and the things I wrote, to focus on: the fact that I did a prompt and drew something AND those four silly dogs, bottom right of the sketch, who I show watching me in case I decide to eat anything or plan to take them out and then give them treats. All four are highly food motivated.

Items show ways I keep up with what I write in my planner and the stickers I use there, appointments, activities, nutrition and meds, and social media/blog. Can’t say I’ve done a ton of writing the past couple of days, but I’m inching along. Keeping the planner helps hold me accountable. Patti Smith is my 2023 daily muse.

When skimming through a few photos on my laptop, I found this screen cap from October 2020. I don’t remember what I said, but David Crosby liked it, and that was one of the highlights of that dreadful year for me. Oh, how that man’s voice has been part of my life from teen to whatever I am now. I will miss him. I will miss his acerbic tweets, music commentary, memories, wit, and the way he’d respond and rate the joints people rolled when they tagged him in their photos. Carry on, Cros.

I barely scroll Twitter now, maybe two to three times a week, because Musk so thoroughly ruined everything that was fun for me, and boy, if people thought there were haters there before, now they don’t even try to cover their viciousness with a wink and a smirk. They are unapologetically vile, and thanks to the new algorithms, they show up in my feed. So many of the people I enjoy reading have left or are quiet with a wait-and-see attitude. I purged my account of tweets and retweets, which meant I lost a lot of my memories and photos. (Some of those tweets keep reappearing, and I delete them again.) I’m keeping my name ownership on the site, but there’s no reason for me to leave my content and photos on an even worse hellmouth than Facebook became.

Your mileage may vary.

Finally, along with Patti Smith’s A Book of Days, pictured in the top photo, which I continue to read daily, in January, I read these two books.

Writing as T.G. Herren, Greg Herren’s A Streetcar Named Murder, A New Orleans Mystery No. 1. A fun introduction to new characters in this cozy, with the ever-compelling city of New Orleans as the backdrop.
Prince Harry’s memoir Spare, which thoroughly absorbed me, particularly as the daughter of a veteran. Whatever sensationalized scandals people might have expected and raged about, that’s not what this is.