The stars go waltzing out

Mad Girl’s Love Song

Sylvia Plath

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan’s men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you’d return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

Another word about creativity

ALL the time, I hear people say, “If I only had time, I’d write [poetry, my novel, a play, my memoirs],” and I agree that time is important. Yet so many writers manage to get that done while taking care of families, holding down demanding jobs, and even maintaining romances and social lives. I usually think it’s not TIME that’s lacking, it’s energy.

I don’t mean only the energy that makes us bound from bed and get cracking on our schedules. I mean the mental and emotional energy it takes to create. It’s a different kind of energy and sometimes discipline and time and inspiration are not enough to put us into a creative frame of mind.

And that is FINE. Sometimes our energy is needed elsewhere. It’s up to YOU to determine if your reasons are legitimate or simply another excuse.

You will never get that poem, novel, short story, play, memoir read or published if you don’t write it. But again, writing takes a lot of energy.

It was a little frustrating for me over the past few days to have so many other things to deal with that I couldn’t get into the zone I need to be in to write. I mean, if you are compelled to write, even when the power is out and the sun is gone and the water is frozen in the pipes, you will light a candle and grab paper and pencil and write. IF YOUR ENERGY FOR IT IS THERE.

We have a few more expected bad days coming to us here, and the water issue is far from resolved, though for now at least, we have power. And I’m absolutely fine with the times that Tom and I have just focused on managing to keep us and our animals warm, our toilets flushable, and our food source safe. We have sat in the dark in front of a gas fire that barely kept the chill away, devised solutions, and remained companionable throughout.


When there was daylight, I worked on this coloring page though I was shivering. When the power would come on for a while at some random time, I used the light to work on her some more. I felt as if her beauty and spirit kept me company and made me know that if I couldn’t write, at least I could embellish someone else’s beautiful drawing.

This is why I call it coloring therapy. It doesn’t rob energy; it helps rebuild it.

This is the book I took it from.

These are a couple of the dolls I picked up at the recent estate sale. I will definitely use their fashion as inspiration when I color more drawings from this book.

I have a count of my boxed dolls now, and a count of my Monster High dolls. I have all the others to count, so I’m waiting to provide a grand total on here. The prospect remains scary.

Arty

I’m not sure I ever shared these on here. I did a couple of art pieces for friends at the end of last year.


“Bloom” — I took a canvas I painted in 2011, “Everyone Has a Meadow,” and used it to create a custom piece for him.


“Her Heart Holds the Key” — I began this piece for her in 2016 and was able to finish it finally.

I’m hoping to do more art this year. And pitch two novels to publishers. And keep working on The Neverending Saga (nearing the end of the third book!). And get my COVID vaccinations.

My pretties…

I believe it’s safe to say that I won’t stop coloring any time soon, as these five collections have found a new home with me.


The part coloring now plays in my writing process is immeasurable. It’s more fun than washing dishes as a way to think and plan what I’ll be writing. And I cry less when I color than I do when thinking in the car.

Do you often see people crying when they drive? I wonder if they’re writers, too. I also speak dialogue out loud to try it out, but I figure other drivers just think I’m using the speaker on my phone.

Questions, No. 4

Another from the 3000 Questions About Me book: 585. What is your favorite short story?

I’ve read thousands and taught hundreds, and there are many I enjoy for all kinds of different reasons. But one story that always comes to mind when someone asks a question like this is “Another April” by Jesse Stuart. I think this is a good indicator that it’s high up there.

I know very little about turtles vs tortoises vs terrapins, but I believe due to the advanced age of one of the characters in the story, he is most likely a tortoise.


Another coloring page from my repurposed 1981 calendar.

Tiny Tuesday!

A lovely page to color from Jenny Lawson’s* book You Are Here:

“It’s a magic lamp. It’s a sorcerer’s hat. It’s a time machine and a songbird and a treasure chest. It’s a weapon and a weight. And also you can type with it.”

Such a small machine to hold infinite thought and imagination.

*I can not recommend her blog enough, especially if you deal with depression and social anxiety and like humor.

Okay, one more

Before I put my tiny FCTRY friends away.


Lynne gave me this coloring book quite a while back. Last year, I pulled out the page for Toronto when I was writing a chapter or two set in Toronto, but then I never colored it.

Couldn’t resist coloring Washington, D.C. this week, though. I’ve only been to D.C. once, and I really liked it. It was a cold October. It would be nice to go in spring when the cherry blossoms bloom.

In recognition of all the fun Bernie memes going around the Internet, I gave him his own place in the photo. He may be looking for his chair.