…of being able to see all the photos I’ve been missing for the past few years is that there are a lot of people who’ve come and gone, and I miss some of them.
Plus I’ve always said I’ve stayed too busy to fully mourn the losses of Margot and Guinness. Seeing years of photos of them, including the last day of each dog’s life, is kind of brutal.
I will confess I cry for Dash often. On his birthday, this Sunday I was telling my Mom how I really feel his spirit went to Monte and told him that I was coming, just to hold on till I stopped crying ( and I never really have ). I believe that with all my heart. I said to my Mom “I know it’s crazy” And she said, “yes, but you’re a crazy girl.” And when she said it, it felt like a compliment, and I think it was. I think with all that happened you probably didn’t get to mourn them, but I also think even if you had, you’d never really stop mourning them… I’m just starting to be okay with that.